Setting an Intention is powerful, as I am learning more and more every day. My intention to become kinder to myself has drawn amazingly lovely resources into my life, and I have dived in.
However, there is one intention I catch myself avoiding–easing into Yoga. On the surface, this makes no sense. I eased right into meditation, and it has become the core of my morning ritual. But I’ve caught myself avoiding yoga.
I did not want to go out to a class–I wanted to do simple movements in the privacy of my own space. So, I signed up for a fabulous beginning yoga course on line, with a highly respected teacher. Perfect.
However, I did not get started when the class began, due to a migraine, and the aftermath. That’s legit. I am really knocked sideways with a migraine. But since then, there has always been something. This morning, I suspected that I am resistant to yoga.
Why? I like working out. I ride a spirited horse. I’m learning to meditate. Why would I resist yoga?
Then it dawned on me–I associate yoga with should. I have heard I should be doing yoga too many times. Until I want to run the other way. Many years ago, I tried yoga in a fairly advanced setting, way over my head. I felt shamed when I was scolded, “You’re not in your body”. And so I have avoided yoga, without understanding why.
What if I banished should and shame from the practice of yoga?
Becoming aware that I have associated yoga with should and shame is a huge first step.
My beginner’s yoga program is on-line and in my own home. The teacher is awesomely supportive and kind. My intention to ease into yoga is for myself. There is no one at home to “should” me or shame me.
Perhaps I can approach yoga in the morning with a fresh perspective, now that I have uncovered why I have unconsciously blocked my intention to ease into yoga.
I am learning much about being present in my body from meditation. I am learning it is essential that we embrace our innate worthiness to banish should and shame. I am “in my body” when I ride my mare. Baby steps.
Perhaps in the morning, I will be ready to ease into yoga.
What are your experiences with intention and resistance?
*Photos: NW Frontier Pakistan, 1997.
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